while everyone is celebrating their fantastic results, im crying under my blanket. i wonder what went wrong during the paper. am i too nervous? am i complacent? am i exerting too much stress to self? what the hell went wrong?
i dont deserve a E at all. i did not do last min revison. neither was i lazy. i was not even online and watching tv. can someone tell me whats wrong?
perhaps im just not exam smart. but i was god damn confident of my B back then. this had greatly hurt my ego.
how can i lose 20 marks just on carelessness? am i sure that its all carelessness?
im sorry. but im too disgusted by my results.
i have to admit. im jealous of the Bs.
i mean, i get people around me telling me to try harder for h2. its ok. perhaps im too stress out during the paper and so on. i know im in a better situation compared to those getting S and U. but this is not about peforming better than others but rather achieving one's aim. i didnt work that hard to aim for a E. seriously, never will i aim this low.
its true that the only alternative now is to score for my H2 subjects to earn back the points that i have lost in my h1. im trying hard. it take time i guess. this h1 result had been a great blow.
i will not be this disappointed if i havent work this hard. im not aiming for something so far fetch. im not doing the impossible. i just know that everything would be capable if i worked for it.
lastly, i still believe that its more reliable to rely on self rather than luck or god. hard work will pay off.. one fine day.
