cool. my day started off so WELL. anyway, i was so freaking pissed over what bryan said in msn yesterday. yes. i had some serious attitude problem but .... I DIDNT SHOW ANY FREAKING ATTITUDE. why not putting u in MY freaking shoe and imagine how i felt yesterday when u told me so directly that im like... pesting to ur beloved brother during exams period. im like still angry today, wanted to see the stupid conversation yet i realise that i didnt save my chat log. damn. but i still remember every shit that u said. i dont think its friendly or nice to hear in any sense. its not like i want to make it BIG and i understand that its for the benefit of ur brother but why not U reflect on the way u talk to me. its not like im a complete stranger who u dont even know my CHARACTER. god damn it. i was once closer to u than delvin and yet... u dont undersatnd me AT ALL. fuck. call me childish be disappointed. i dont care. u know how paisei and speechless i was? when u told me that ur brother is not studying and the main reason is because HE IS ALWAYS ON THE PHONE, HANGING OUT LATE, NOT WORKING HARD ENOUGH, SMSING? if i dont know u. fine ... i can just defend myself and scold u back in whatever language i want. but the thing is , u are my BEST FRIEND, we hang out every single week. and FUCK LA. i dont know how to explain la. damn. why do i even have to make an effort to pacify u IF U THINK THAT IM THAT BAD AND SUCH A GREAT DISTRACTION. FUCK FUCK FUCK. im hate teh feeling sitting there staring at the screen and see u saying things that tiggers me off. come on. im not some fairy who has a very good control of my temper. and pls be glad that i didnt blast at u im like..some idoit... getting scolded by something which is like. WHAT? im like that its not like the first day u know me. dont liek my attitude. then SCRAM. anyway. what happened today is well. unexpected. i wasnt in the mood to go to school. was totally drained from syf trainings and PE and books. then i was like... considering whether to go to school not and ya. my decision was to go school since there's nothing much for me at home and i miss my classmates. once i OPEN MY EYES or rather, awake wothout my alarm, i thought of yesterday and i got pissed. so ... as i am LEESIYA.. i purposely slowly do my things and di li de li... slowly slowly. finally left home at 7.10. so ya. expected to be late. sure enough im LATE. but what happens is.. the teacher in charge of the gate today is the DM and lit monster. so ya. i got into trouble. they went to check my records and im send straight to the hall for SUSPENSION. cool. had to call my mum down or else i have to be suspensed till my mum see the DM or principal. then ya. my mum came down and stuffs. so i cant be late ANYMORE. if im late for the next time. i will serve 1 WEEK SUSPENSION FROM HOME. 2ND TIME. 1 MONTH SUSPENSION FROM HOME. never in my life, my mum go to my sch to get these SHITS. AHHHHHHHHHHHH then i went for syf today. so... i have to serve a 10-TEN hour suspension in the hall tomorrow. totally cool eh. screws up in life. but ya. i can study and concentrate while in the hall. so i guess its something good since it can force some facts into my head. so YUPS. my classmates are sweet la. paowei smsed me to keep me from boredom. claris, check, eunice, hilmi, shawn, paowei, fazilla and others came and visit me during their breaks. thanks 06a2 a lot a lot. HAHAHA. then went for syf practice today. well i screwed up a little in the begining but.. AHEM... im good. hahahaha. and ya. my name appeared on the screen at the national stadium and it is being annouced by the emcees too. im so proud of myself. HAHAHAHHAAH. and ya. my younger sister school is going. hence ya.. she gonna see her pretty sister there, on the ground. hahahaha. hopefully she is proud enough to say: HEY! THATS MY PRETTY SISTER. hahahahhaa. got the 2 tickets today but fuck. my boyfriend isnt going due to some shitty rubbish that erupt from nowhere. and zhuowei if he go alone ... also DOTS. and my fav. teacher cant make it as he has to attend his cousins wedding. so ya. my mum would not even be bothered. and my brother is more excited than anything to see me, but... no1 is there to bring him over. so ya. so what if im the C.C. no one even bothers. argh! and ya. zijun doesnt like attenting such rubbish. so ya. im speechless. FUCK UP.
