my laptop is so fuck up. damn. keeps on hanging. im in this super bad mood that i feel liek throwing this dumb thing out of my room window. FUCK. i just tyep one super long entry and now its GONE. argh. i dont understand why people is trying hard to get on my nerves. ESPECIALLY MY CLOSEST ONES. first my mum. freak. dont understand what she is thinking. keep on nagging non stop. yak yak yak yak from 4.30 to 5.30. from woodlands to plaza singapura. damn yucky la. feel liek leaving her alone and walk away. damn angry la. my sister irriates her, she also scold me. WTH. anyway, thats not what trigger me off today. rendy did it well done. i dont understand a shit what happen to him nowsdays. suddenly so sensative and emotional. i have to like keep giving in to him until i can no longer take it. stop replying his sms and calls. rendy, u know me for a freaking 2 years plus, u know that i will not leave u just because of my friends neither will i let u rot alone or heck u or whatever u can think of. i dont have to like keep on telling u, u are my best friend, i care for u. cant u like sense it when i wake u up every single day . FREAK. i told u im tired, thats whyi dont really want to talk much this few days. what was ur reply? COS IM BUSY ENTERTAINING MY NEW FRIENDS. what is wrong with u. id dint even meet any of them this week. after school i go home straight. do i have to go out with u every day. or every week. talk to u on the phone every day, sms u every moment, chat with u whenever im online? i dont even understand why u complain. i meet u at least once very week. we go out more then i go out with my new friends. what more u expect? i do have my own life. my own friends. and whats the phone of holding on the phoen when we have nothing to talk rather tahn laming around?WHATS WITH THAT FREAKING ATTITUDE U ARE GIVING ME. simply replying me YAYAYAYAYAYA. whats THE F IS THAT. and what this stupid sms exchange supposed to mean? rendy: so how, any one going for ur carnival? need me to go? siya: ya. got la. aiya, u come also no use. later u alone. i will be busy. rendy lol. just say that u will be busy wuth ur new frens .. so ya.. better dont come will be ignored more. WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT FOR. to tell the truth, upon seeing this msg, im already freaking pissed. i feel so much liek throwing my phone out of my class window. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH U. u say that, its wrong for ignoring u cos i got many friends and i forgot teh old ones. IS THAT WHAT U THINK. IW AKE U UP EVEN WHEN IM ANGRY WITH U. MUST I BE 24.7 SWEET TO U. DID I EVER FORGET U OTHER THEN THAT STUPID LESLIE INCIDENT. IF U THINK SO. THEN FINE GOOD IM NOT WORTHY TO BE UR FRIEND. THEN I WILL GET OUT OF UR WONDERFULL LIFE. dont sms or call me then even until now i dont think im wrong for rejectings and not replyings all ur calls. i think im RIGHT . downright RIGHT. i actually said sorry to u more than 2 times. what more u expect? sorry. im petty. thats me. until now. 12.03 im still freaking mad at u. fuck fuck fuck fuck u are a fault and u want me to coax u? dream on. i dotn even knwo where u get the idea of me ignoring u when im with u liek 24/7 except this week. ust 4 days and u are showing me attitude. its not like i didnt ans ur calls and sms. i ans and i reply. but didnt i tell u im tired. and whats ur reply: talk to me tired eh. WHATEVER LA. IM NOT IN THE MOOD TO COAX ANYONE WHOEVER WANTS TO BE PISSED WITH ME. JUST GO AHEAD. IF U PEOPLE THINK WHAT RENDY THINKS OF ME. JUST FORGET ME EVER BEING UR FRIEND SINCE IM NOT WORTHY. THANKS. FUCK. i dont understand why i must go around coaxing people here and there. its not like i ahd done any wrong. FUCK. thanks mum and rendy for ruining my day. i feel like getting bang by a car and die that instant just ti disappear from this freaking world. my mum keeps on talking about commiting suidice. cool mum isnt it? FUCK. what a BEST FRIEND I HAVE. i didnt meet zijun for coming 2 mths yet she didnt complain more. NEITHER WILL SHE GIVE ME THE ATTITUDE U ARE U ARE GIVING ME NOW. she understands me and she knwo that i wont leave her alone. if u dont trust me. then fine. get out of my life. why must i always be the one asking u out why cant u ask me out and when i dont ask u out U THINKS THAT IM IGNORING U AGAIN. cool. whatever SHIT. FUCKED.
