since im still kind of awake now, i shall just laid back and blog about what happened this few days. yeah? yups.
eh... school is getting better day by day i guess. had this new friend called check ling.older than me a year, but she looks like my age. LOL. we gossip and stuffs. yeah, but .... we are not as close till the part like zijun and me? yy and me? yeah.hoping so much for MORE friends.its not that bad though, i made quite a no. of friends. just.. havent find a friend who suits my character. yeah.
hoping that eleanor can get into my class, as my class have this combination that suits eleanor PERFECTLY. geograpy,ART,literature. then.. can choose between maths,physics,chemistry. from my point of view, i think that, as long as she dont take econs, she will have a better life. but.. hai. thanks to her subborness. she called and asked today, but the school says that since the lesson had started, she cant appeal in already. im SPEECHLESS. hai. I MISS MY BESTIESSSSS. ZIJUN, ELEANOR,RENDY.
i was like day dreaming how nice will it be, to have a secondary school friend with me. I MISS EM. argh. thought of how nice it will be, going for pe with eleanor. breaks. study. but.. PROFF* it will never happen again. or.. rather... UNIVERSITY? lol
meet up with zijun and eleanor yesterday though im superb tired. eleanor was late again. we are supposed to meet at 2.30, but she left home at 2.30. what a cool friend i have. next.. she was late for an hour plus. I WONDER WHICH MRT LINE SHE TAKES. i was kidda tired, hence i dont really talk much. but its just so nice and comfortable to be with them... even if it means sitting in the mrt and not talking, its NICE. really.
zijun wanted to buy a puma belt and wallet. LOL. i think im going to follow suit. HAHAHA. i need a cool belt and wallet too. though i HAD a coool wallet now. HAHAHHAHA.
i think my GP teacher is kidda pissed of me. LOL. i entered MI in less than a month and im late for 2 times. LOL. next... in class.. he was like talking.. so ya. i laid back and FOLDED my arms. LOL. cos its like.. nothing for me to write. then he say: class, you are supposed to write whatever i say not just laid back and fld ur arms. LOL. god. next, parents night. eh.. he actually called my mum and asked her to go.. but, my mum REJECTED. hahahha. so ya.
cos of that, i can meet bryan tml. hee. have a nice dinner or something. yeah. i called him today and he is like so EXCITED. lol. 1 more day to go. woohoo! but causeway point? i think im going to give him a surprise. wait for him at cck mrt? how does it sounds? LOL. still considering. LOL.
and..eh.. jun chen smsed me something weird today. yups. he says: haiz, dont know whether to tell u mah... but i have been feeling happy during the time we are together, at least u are able t make me smile and laugh. me: what do u expect me to reply. lol.CRAP. then he started telling me about his family, saying his parents might divored and always quarrel. one thing about me, divored to me.. isnt a BIG thing. its like.eh normal. cant blame me. cos, i had never lived in a coomplete family. quarreling is normal too. it may sounds curt, but.. thats me. i dont know how to console people and but i expect ppl to console me when im down. hence, i had changed. whenever i sad, i just kept quiet. its like.. how can i expect to console people when i never know HOW. agree?i know im selfish. yeah.. it might be too early to say this.. but.. i dont liek guys to speaks vuglarity. im just so uncomfortable with it. i dont like guys who ... would want me to console. LOL. i hate guys who control my spentings. i hate guys who nags at me. i hate guys who talk bad about my friends. i super hate guys who say my shirt is bad. LOL. thats ME. when i enter MI, i like thinking, how nice to have zhuowei around. LOL. i took him for granted when im working at toyrus. lol. keep on bullying him. dont reply his sms. dont answer his calls. LOL. but.. dotn know why.. he is like STILL so super nice to me la. regret regret. LOL. but I WILL STILL BULLY HIM ON SAT LA. CANT MISS IT. HAHAHHAHA.
so. what shall i reply jun chen whenever he smsed me abt his family. its like. he used caps. and ... expect a nice and sweet and comforting reply? i feel like ignoring it. its not my style to.. eh...HECK.
from my point of view, for now, 30 march 2006, i think that love is meaningless at this age. its like.. a waste of youth, time and money. when one's get into a relationship, he/she has to do things that his/her partner would be pleased with. he/she had to constraint herself/himself doing what he/she feel like doing. and.. at the age of SEVENTEEN. i find it dumb. i dont need aother realtionship to wrong my friendship with my besties. friends are friends. im wondering i can stay single for how long. but... i still dont feel like getting int o a relationship.im afraid of being hurt. leslie's lesson. THANKS A MILLION.
sat got to go down to store and meet yy and others. haha. I AMAZINGLY MISS ZHUOWEI A LOT LA. lol. god. hahahahha. then.. hang around for a while. then maybe yy house. yups.but i have to be home early, cos i have to finish my tutorials as i have to go to the temple on SUN. my whole family including my aunts are going. so yups. cant go for hanson thing.i wonder what i will become when my mum dies. i hope she lives on FOREVER. or rather, i die before her, so that i wont experience life WITHOUT her. i love mu mum lots.
from the buttom of my heart, i really thank my mum and uncle for giving me what i need . i will not disappoint em. hence, I MUST STUDY DAMN HARD, SCORE WELL, ENTER UNIVERSITY AND REPAY THEM. thats my job.
i will be smart if i want to be. SMILES. MOTIVATED TO STUDY.
