argh. im so angry, pissed and controlled now. i shouldnt have take school break from toyrus. seriously, my life now at home SUCKS TO THE CORE. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
its like., im coming 17 but im treated like im 12. i have to beg and ask for some freaking permission, and it cant confirm that i can go out for sure. so wth. wanted to go out with zijun so badly today, i had to ask and beg for freaking long, and had to get suan by my mum before she finally say yes. so wth. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. im so pissed off la. its like... i havent been out of the house with my friends this week yet la and its liek so hard to go out even for one day. arghhhhhhhhhhh. im so angry la.
now that im not working, i had no income and neither do i have savings. i spent the rest of my freaking money on all my silbings. ad i have to ask for every single cent from my uncle. mum is so cool. she wants me to use that 200 BUCKS TO PAY MY HP BILLS, EAT BREAKFAST LUNCH AND DINNER. wth. how can i survive man. CHEAPO. my sister gets 50 bucks too... but she need not pay her hp bills and HER SCHOOL FOOD IS FAR CHEAPER AND NICER. argh.
200 for MI. COOL. if i go poly. 200 BUCKS... I THINK I RATHER KNOCK THE WALL AND DIE.
really hate it. being control just because school term is starting, my mum is not working so much, stays home all the time.. and order me around.
yesterday is nicer. she asked me accompany her to the supermarket. fine i went. end up i did nothing more than.. CARRYING THE STUPID GEEN BASKET, LINE UP, PAY MONEY, CARRY ALL THE STUFFS, GO HOME. on the freaking way home, i got scolded like HELL. over some dumb stuffs that i dont feel like listening.
my younger sister can be so irriaitating at times. guess what she say to me yesterday. she say: hey. floorball indoor or outdoor? me: indoor. she:wow. lucky eh.. indoor... or else.. SO WTH LA. me: YAYA, IF OUTDOORS IM GOING TO GET BURN TO DEATH.
freaking pissed. its like whatever i do at home is wrong. i tried to do everything my mum wants and yet i still get scolde.d who likes to be scolded man.
i had to mop floor, wash toilet, wipe and pack the shoe cupboard, wash a lot of dishes, iron clothes, keep clothes. am i a maid or something.
and my sister is off to school. so cool.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I HATE BEING CONTROLLED. AND I HATE PEOPLE WHO THINKS THAT THEY REALLY UNDERSTANDS ME WHEN THEY DONT EVEN KNOW A BIT WHATS IM THINKING. and thats u. dont even act like u know it all, and stuff and piss me off. dont even say i leave out eleanor when she is the leaving me out. dont ever say zijun is going to backstab me when i knwo she would NEVER do it. dont even comment on my clothes cos i htink they are totally cool. dont ever comment about my school when u are schooless. dont ever act like u know me. when u NEVER DO.
feel like doing some crazy exercise like RUNNING 1000000000000000km.
