arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. im so freaking angry la. FUCK. today is supposed to be a really nice day. but god knows. my uncle spoils it. damn fucked up.
reached home at around 10.30. then, my laptop charger cant woprk. hence i went over to my sis room to use come la. after a while recall that my phone was actually still in my room, hence i asked my sis to bring my phone over. then, the phone is rining, but she didnt picked up. cos it writes: pte no. like duh. pte no. how to know who call. then got 2 missed calls. so, i assume that its my mum , so i called back. then no response. so i waited for her to call me back. COMMON REACTION. dont u think so?
then the next sec, hear keys sound and both my mum and uncle are back. and MY FREAKING UNCLE CAME INTO TEH ROOM AND FIND FAULT WITH ME. wth. whats wrong with me for not answering MY HANDPHONE. duh. if i didnt ans the housephone, u want to slap me also can. but HANDPHONE? WITH ONLY 2 MISSED CALLS? FUCK IT LA.
then i ask.. why didnt he call home right. agree? COMMON SENSE. as in... i told him, usually at this hour, im not even released from work lo. call me for what. WHAT WHAT WHAT. FUCK. then he say, cos my mum is drunk. AND HE SAYS THAT I FREAKING DONT GIVE A DAMN ABT MY MUM AND I DONT LOVE MY MUM AT ALL. wheres the freaking link?
he claimed that... he called me, cos he need help opening the door. he afriad that my mum jump down from the building while he opens the door. SO? YA... I GET THE PICTURE. BUT WHY MY HP WHEN HE FREAKING KNOW IM WORKING IN THIS HOUR. AND .... THEY DIDNT KNWO IM OFF TODAY. SO WHY CALL MY HP. DONT MAKE ANY SENSE AT ALL LA.
then i reply say: u call me also no use. im not at home. why u think im home. why dont u call the house instead. as in, its MORE PRACTICAL WHAT.
then guess what he reply? he said: U THINK I CAN STILL THINK IN THIS KIND OF SITUATION. what the fuck? duh.
then i say. u call me. then what am i supposed to do? then he say: call home and ask the kids open the door.
FUCK HIM LA. SO? IT SOUNDS SO STUPID AND HE STAMMERED WHILE TALKING TO ME.
then he blasted at my sister say: U WILL BE SLEEPING AND U WONT ANSWER THE PHONE.
SO IF THATS THE BLOODY CASE. WHY DID HE EVEN CALL. STUPID RIGHT. THE WHOLE STORY HAS NO LINK AT ALL.
HE TINKS THAT THE FUCKING F WORD IS SO FREAKING COOL. AND KEEP ON USING IT ON BOTH MY SISTER AND ME.
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH HIM.
then go on and on. until i cnat take it. i screamed back saying: WHATS WRONG WITH U LA. COME BACK SCOLD SCOLD SCOLD. KEEP ON USING THE F WORD FOR WHAT. WHO KNOWS U CALLED. AND WHO KNOWS BAD THINGS ILL HAPPEN TO MUCH AND THE FACT THAT U WENT OUT WITH HER. WHO EXPECT BAD THINGS TO HAPPEN TO HER. AND ITS STILL EARLY LA. 10 PLUS. IF 12 PLUS ... FINE LA.
AND IF MY MUM GO OUT, I WILL SURE TAG ALONG. AND I WILL CALL HER ONCE ITTS 10PM AND 12AM. I WONT LET HIM OUT ALONE. AND NEITHER WILL I LET HER DRINK WIH HER FRIENDS ALONE. SO WHATS THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH HIM.
then he keep on saying i hate him, say i dont like him, say he will leave my house by tonight. say he will never come back. say its ALL ME, LEE SIYA FREAKING FAULT. argh.
just FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK LA.
then ask why i didnt go into the room to see my mum. its like FOR WHAT. YA, SHE'S DRUNK. BUT FOR WHAT? IF I GO IN, MY MUM WILL CRY. NEXT ... WILL SCREAM. THEN QUARREL WITH MY UNCLE. THEN I CANT STAND IT. I WILL PUSH MY UNCLE AWAY. THEN WILL START CRYING. THEN LATER MY UNCLE FIND FAULT WITH ME. THEN I ARGUE BACK. THEN MY MUM SLAP ME. THEN LATER SHE CRY AGAIN. THEN WANNA JUMP DOWN FROM BULIDIONG, THROW SOFA. USE KNIFE.A LL THE SHIT. THEN ... SCREAM SUPER LOUD. THE POLICE COME.
COME ON MAN. THIS HAVE CONTINUE FOR THE PAST 8 TO 9 YEARS. I KNOW IT ALL. WHEN I GO INTO THE FREAKING ROOM, IM SURE TO GET SLAPPED. IM SURE TO GET POLICE RECORD. IM SURE TO CRY. IM SURE TO HURT BADLY. IM SURE TO BLAME.
AND SEE.... AM I AT FAULT FOR TODAY EVENT NOT?
it like the WHOLE FAMILY KNOWS THEY ARE OUT TOGETHER. GET THE WORD. ITS TOGETHER.
ITS VINCENT PEK WHOP WANTS TO BRING HER OUT TO DRINK.
SO?
MY FAULT?
IM WRONG
I DESERVED TO GET SCREAMED AND BALSTED AT WHEN THEY ARE DRUNKED AND UNHAPPY OR QUARREL?
IM THE PUCHING BOX TO GET SLAP AT WHEN THEYFEEL FUCKED UP?
IM AT FAULT WHEN MY MUM IS DRUNK?
ITS MY FREAKING FAULT LA.
FUCK MY LIFE LA
I DONT EVEN WANT TO RELY ON THEM
IF ONLY IM A BOY
I WILL SIGN ON AND DO WHATEVER SHIT I CAN TO LEAVE THIS HOUSE
IF ONLY... IMA BOY
AND I GOT THIS URGE TO SPLASH WATER ON VINCENT PEK''S FACE TO ASK HIM TO FREAKING WAKE UP FROM HIS BLOODY IDEA.
IM NOT AT FAULT AT ALL
DOES HE THINK THAT IM FEELING FUCKED GOOD AFTER BEEN SCOLDED OVER NOTHING I HAD DONE WRONG
